I’m getting pretty bad about not writing weekly. It’s been two weeks since my last post. I just haven’t been in the mood to write, and really, diabetes hasn’t been my major focus lately. I mean, of course it’s here. It will NEVER go away, but lately it’s like I’ve been on autopilot with my diabetes. It hasn’t taken up all the energy and focus that it usually does. I think this is the first time since my diagnosis that I have felt this way, and I’m not too sure that I like it.
One night when I had a snack, I totally forgot to test my blood sugar before eating. I didn’t realize my mistake until I had completely finished my snack, was going into the kitchen to take my insulin, and began trying to remember what my blood sugar had been. It was weird that I couldn’t remember. I looked at my log and the space for snacktime blood sugar was blank! I’ve forgotten to test only a few times, usually when I’m really hungry and very excited to eat. Luckily, my blood sugar was 120 even after eating so the only insulin I had to take was to cover my food!
So what is taking up all my energy and focus? Recovering from surgery and trying to get to the point where I can be cast for a prosthetic leg. Right now the nerves and soft tissue in my limb are too sensitive from surgery to be cast for a leg; I can’t even get the liner that goes into the prosthetic on because it hurts too bad. Because of that, I get to do desensitization therapy. This is to reduce the sensitivity in my limb, hence the name “desensitization” and hopefully get me up on two legs sooner. Basically, I have to rub different materials (towel, sponge, etc.) on the sensitive areas (pretty much the whole scar line) for 15 minutes every 2 hours. To get different sensations, I also stick my limb in containers of rice, beans, and marbles. Because of this experience, I will now be much more understanding as a nursing student/nurse when I have orders for a patient to do something for a certain length of time every few hours. It definitely is a hard schedule to follow everyday!
My major goal is to get cast for a prosthetic and be back on two legs by the time classes start in the fall. Junior year, the 2nd year in the nursing program, means clinicals start (I’ll have med/surg and OB/Peds), and I can’t be stuck in this wheelchair or on crutches when that time comes. Hopefully this desensitization therapy works, and I’ll be able to be cast in 4-5 weeks!